I have been struggling with getting my… well, what is it I’m struggling with? Something, right? My schedule, for sure, but I think it’s slightly bigger than that. It’s like a combination of schedule, plans, balancing needs… like my routine, I suppose? I think routine. Yeah, I think my routine is broken.
My routine is in need of some fixing.
I know I’ve lamented some issues with my routine before, though I don’t recall exactly when or to what degree. I think at some point I had this notion that I’d just figure it out, fix it, and it’d be super cool so I’d share it. It is not super cool. It’s not fucked, I mean I don’t have a day job to get to. I don’t have any job to get to. So that means there isn’t like, something every day that I’m rolling in late to or that’s dorking up all of my other plans and wants or anything. But I do have studying, which I have been increasingly treating like a job. And I also have occasional appointments and other obligations, but those are relatively rare. It’s really the learning needs and the social obligations… obligations? I guess I am obliged to participate in some of them, but there are many more social situations that I’m not obliged but also not having and would like to have. Wow, that was a real sentence there. You know what? This post is going to be short and barely edited, and that’s just how it’s gunna be. I’ll post something on the subject that’s more substantial when I think it through some more.
Actually, the tone of this post is a decent illustration of the point. I’m a little overwhelmed, occasionally flustered, and I’m like, 99% sure it’s because my routine has completely fallen apart. Supporting this claim is how I’m starting to feel better about things with even the little work I’ve done so far towards fixing it. I think that’s what I was starting to say in the last paragraph. Well, that and how I’d like for the fixes to my routine to include more openings for my social wants.
I definitely have the time and I’m pretty sure I have just about everything else that I need to fix this shit. I guess I’m currently in the trial and error phase, and I’ve made some errors. I am dialing in my needs regarding health, fitness, and sleep pretty well. I’ve started a good effort on fixing my studying situation, which really needs to take up the lion’s share of my time. But I need to open up as much time as I can, and I need to reserve a good chunk of that, every week, for some social gettings of together. Preferably more than one. I’ve been averaging something like two outings a month, and that just ain’t cuttin’ it. But it’s tough to make get togethers happen when you’re an adult and even harder when you have weird health needs and that further compounds with anxiety.
I did myself up a little starter schedule, which was some nice spreadsheet practice. I’ll post whenever I get around to the real one. I think I’ve figured out that in order for this to work, I need to get back to starting my days earlier. Not as early as when I was in the military, but way earlier than I have most of this past year or so.
Alright, I’m not totally together right now, but wanted to jot down this thought while it is fresh in my head. I also wanted to to get something small posted before too much of the week burned by. Talk about routine problems, it’s already Wednesday. I’ve got some work I want to put into that schedule and routine before today is over, so I’m off to do that. See you on Fitness Check Friday.